Fights

What do you think about this post? Have you been in a fight before? Well i did.. I mean those fight when you go one on one with another person, gang fights and stuff like that.. Why did i do that? Well, arguements.. And seriously i thought those stuff were cool in my younger days. Maybe i was rebelious, maybe i wanted to be recognize, and maybe i thought it was heroism..

Now reflecting back, I would often laugh at those stuff that i did back then. Childish enough, but it was those things that made me grow up, made me see things and understand things. I would say, I am still in a fight today. No, not those petty fights or arguements, but in the struggle to achieve my dreams, my ambitions. Looking at the path that I have gone through, well, sometimes i do things that the fights during my younger day are so much more innocent. As you grow up, you tend to realize that every action that you take, does affect the people around you. You tend to be more rational of the actions that you take. Though the "fights" that i am in today are much tougher.. well, what am i saying? Road to success are never easy arent they? I would say that I wouldnt be too happy if all my dreams can be achieved by now. Life would be boring then. As of now, I am enjoying the road that i have chosen, though its not a pleasant one,at all! But at least it broaden up my horizon, and I know one day.. the day for me to unlock my dream, shall come..

Is life fair?

So what do you think? Is life fair? Is there such thing as fairness in life? I think this is one of those century old question that have yet to have any answers. Its the same as asking is there a hen before an egg or vice versa.

The reason i am writing this is because i have been noticing something quite interesting around me.. i mean us.. at least those that was born and stayed in Malaysia or Singapore..

Its about food.. yeah, ya heard me right.. Its food!! When I looked around me, there are always abundances of food around us, 24hrs coffee shops, Hypermart, Food courts, fancy restaurants and the lists go on and on.. It ponders me, what do the people do with all the leftovers by the end of the day? Looking at the quantity of food that was prepared, I seriously have doubts that all this food would be completely sold out by the end of day. Yet, when the next sunrise comes, new and fresh food would be prepared. Then what about the leftovers? Thrown away i supposed.. It really ponders me, if all these leftovers can be sent on time to those countries that is suffering from poverty and could hardly have any food to eat.. would poverty still exists? Will children still dies of hunger? So.. is life fair? Or its just fair to us because we are born under a nation that have limitless provision of food ( at least for the time being). You be the judged..

Doubts

I m sure everyone of us has this thing in us.. yeah, its called doubt. When will you start doubting yourself? When you have not enough confidence I supposed.. Or was it when you try n try n try.. even you yourself has lost counts of the time that you stand up n fight.. But nevertheless, the things that you kept on fighting for had never comes your way.. Yeah, thats exactly whats happening to me now.. N i started to have this doubting feeling in me, period..

I m starting to lost my direction.. Trying not to think n keep on fighting.. But the doubting feeling is getting stronger as each day passed.. I m starting to ask myself, am I doing the right thing? Well, sure.. along the way you will hear encouraging voices like " You dont get it because there are something better waiting for you, just hav faith" Faith? Sometimes i can only laugh to myself silently when i hear this word coming my way.. Yeah, maybe faith does eliminates doubts.. But how long can you hold on to your faith when the fighting spirit in you are draining out....

Stoned...

No.. not from alcohol.. I really hoped that it was alcohol that made me stoned but hell no.. I m still on night shift job.. Seriously.. I m feeling so stoned.. As though as my body react without any thoughts or soul.. Maybe I didnt get enough rest earlier... Fucked it, whatever the reason.. I really wanna know when I can quit this job.. Hospitality line sucks big time as I m no longer interested anymore.. Yeah, the paychecks kill my day each n everytime.. The funny thing is, I still cant leave without it.. Damn, life is all about choices, i know.. But whose gonna feed me when i dun hav anymore greens left in my accounts? No, I m not broke yet.. Just fighting as a veteran every month.. Fuck..

Toto

Working night shift today.. my collegue was whining to me why he didnt kena Toto..

Yeah right, if everyone can strike the numbers so ezily, there would be no beggars on the street d... Loser....***

Some updates

Ok, gonna do some updates since its been some times.. Lets see wats happening to my life this month besides contributing my lifespan to work. Fuck, i m making other ppl richer tending their business while i dun get a penny more myself. Yes, life's pretty much a bitch. Just be prepared to get laid..

I think the event worth mentioning about here is that I have proposed to her on 09/09/09. After all these years, i think that its just the right thing to do and the timing is just right. But marriage would probably be 2 yrs later, on 2011, when I am more financially prepared and strong. If you asked me whether i m happy now.. I find it quite difficult to answer this question. All I could say is my mentality had changed drastically these years. Shits just happened in life, no matter how hard you tried to avoid it. If thats the case, why not start learning how to appreciate life's little gestures when it comes? Because the ultimate destiny for every living being is the same, we will eventually face death when the time is right. So try to leave a footprint to proof that you have live your life to the fullest when you are still given a chance. As for me, I have chosen my dream, which is to achieve financial freedom before the age of 40. Hopefully i will be able to review this article by then and said "I have made it!!"..

Definition of Busy

One of the reservation staff is calling the front office. And I happened to pick up this phone call.

Reservation Staff: Are you Bz?

Me: YES!!

Reservation Staff: Very Bz?

Me: .... Not exactly very bz but i am actually bz however its not till the stage of extremely bz but pls dun be mistaken coz i m still bz

Reservation Staff: okok **hangs up

Me:...

There goes our intellectual conversation this morning

A story from long long ago

Once upon a time (all stories starts like that, dunno why..) there was this country in a far away land. This country made up of people from different tribes. Each tribes had different believes and religion but everything was well at first. Since 60% of the people in this country believes in one religion called the M religion, thus after sometimes, this country was ruled by the M religious law. Everything was still well at this point of time.

As the world during that time started to change and improved, this country didnt want to lose and wanted to improve as well. The goberment of this country wanted to impress the world and didnt want to lose face but at the same time, doesnt want to make any changes. So the smart and intelligent goberment came up with ideas as such to improve this country.

Attract more foreign investment. If people from other country invest in this country, economy will grows. But at the same time, religious law still applies for all foreign investment. All foreign investment must hire employees made up of the people from M religion. If you dont hire, you cant invest in this country. Yes, this country stands strong for its religion. The intelligent goberment believes this plan will work eventhough the people frm this religion are either dumb, stupid or lazy. Yes, this plan will work.

Somehow or another, to make the country prosper, the gap between the rich and the poor must not be too far apart, else riot and unstablelization will occur. So smart of the goberment from this country to realize that. As this country was run by the 60% of people who prayed to the M religion which are dumb, stupid and lazy, thus people from other tribes that are rich must help out with these people. If you are M believers, you have discounts whether you wanna buy car, house, business or whatever investment you want to do. The goberment will help and you do not need to pay as much as the OTHERS. As for the OTHERS, pay the fucked up for everything that you need. Yes, this law will work.

Build SHRINE to unite the M people. Broadcast the prayers from the SHRINE 5 times a day, even as early as 5am in the morning. Tell all the tribes in this country that M people are people and the rest of the tribes are considered as OTHERS. This law will unite them all.

Promote tourism. Get people from all around the world to visit this country. BUT, all efforts in promoting must go according to the M religious law. So a classic example is to hold out a concert by famous artist from all over the world in this country. But all the artist from all over the world MUST follow the M religious law in order to perform in this country. The clothes they wear must not reveal skins, you cant get sponsors from alcoholic company and such. Yes, the goberment from this country strongly believes such promotions worked.

For this country to prosper, there must be no corruption. All goberment workers that consists of people from M religious strongly agrees to it. So, in order for the goberment to help the OTHERS, the OTHERS must HELP them first. This is not corruption and unity makes all WONDERS worked.

Promote education. But goberment education are only reserved for M people. OTHERS please search other alternatives else-where. When you, the OTHERS have completed your education else-where, you the OTHERS are expected to return and serve this country.

Last but not least, pray. This is a religious country afterall. All M religions people believes and stand strong for their God. But robbery, stealing, raping and even incest cases are made up from this people. But its okay, its acceptable although the crime rate in this country is high. Thats because they have pray to their God and they are forgiven. This country will still continue to prosper.

Hence, with such competent goberment and the people so unite, how can this country not prosper. End of story.

Above story is adapted from a fairy tales that are passed down in schools library.

Life is fair... my arse!!

Have you ever wondered why the world is so unfair? Some people are born filthy rich, have everything within their grasp. Just say the word and the world are theirs for their holding. Some worked hard, slogged all their life but cant even afford a coffin when they are dead. Worse still, some 3rd world countries citizen are even willing to trade ten years of their life span in exchange of a decent meal. Sad but truth.. this is the world that we are living in where utopia and equality are just further than happy-endings fairy-tales

Some people like it, some people detest it to the core. So what about you? Do you think life is fair for you? Ever wondered why you have slogged so hard and why the hell you are still fighting like a front line soldier to survive till the end of the month.. praying for the next paycheck to lift you up from the grave?

If you ask me, life is just not about fairness. Fairness just doesnt exists. Look around you, observe hard.. and viola, i have prove my point. However, i do notice something valuable during the journey of life. Life is not about fairness, life is about choices. Its the choices, big or small that we make in life that causes the difference. If we choose to be poor, we will. However, if being poor is a sin to you, you will eventually become rich if you really choose to. I refuse, just strongly refuse to allow myself to have the mentality of the poor and average class. Not that i am any richer today than yesterday, but i just refuse to settle down for normal and average life. Setbacks, disspointment, dissatisfaction are just emotions to push me further. All these factors will eventually grow into experience. And experience and knowledge are the factors essential to accumulate wealth.

Recently, I have read a book on investment. In the book, the 90/10 theory is written. According to the author, 90% of the wealth in this world are controlled by only 10% of the population. So in other words, the other 90% of the population, namely you and me, and other poor fuckers and middle classes, are sharing the merely "leftover" 10% of wealth. How truth it is, observe the people around you. Fuck, no wonder we are damn freaking poor. Well, its ok. The point is, wealth is everywhere. How well you gather your wealth depends on just how well you utilized the fucking brain of yours. Just remember the golden rules, theres no such thing as fairness and equality. Ciaoz~

Bridges

Here i am, working night shift again.. My feelings sucks big time.. As i have discovered lotsa opportunities across the river.. If only I could cross this river, i will be starting to make myself a fortune, slowly but surely. But the damn thing is, you cant swim across it.. and no matter how you search along the riverside, there is no bridge for you to cross..

But thats fine, all I have to do is build myself a bridge. Just as soon as I realized what I have to do.. I noticed that I have no materials to built the fucking bridge. Ahhhhhhh.. It sucks... One failure after another is really draining the fighting spirit out of me.. Cant use other word to describe my feelings now except for the word S.U.C.Kssssss.. Where is my lucky star???

Success Formula

Everyone crave for success, i am sure. Success definition can be different for everyone, but one way or another, there is a craving for it. We want to be recognize, we wanna be somebody. Those who doesnt have any craving for any form of success had better well be dead. There are wasting oxygen. Sounds cruel, but when you have all the condition to reach the top, why not aim for it and look at the phenomena from up high?

But it aint no easy road to reach up there. Many tried, and boy oh boy, trust me, ALL of them are hit hard. So hard that sometimes that they stumble straight back to ground zero.. or way deeper.. Some tried again, but some quit and says "Good game".. Some other blames it on luck and move away but never blaming themselves..

However, some made it. A very few "some". Have you ever wondered, does success have any formula? If you ask me, as far as i am concerned, there is and there is only one. Its called "DETERMINATION". The DESIRE, the CRAVING and the HUNGER for success. Its this determination that made it all happen. People like this are the people that you can never killed. And yes... I am very very hungry now.. I have yet reach the top, in fact far from it. But i know.. deep down.. my desire is burning..

Self description

Hey, if one day, someone gonna ask u to describe yourself. Such as what kinda person are u, your personality and so on, how are u gonna do it? Well, as for me, thats how i answer, guess thats my best description..

"I would rather learn how to fly and drop death to the ground if i fail than using my legs to walk for the rest of my life!!"

Yeah, thats the best description for me as that is how i run my life, day in and day out.

This entry is for Singaporeans and PRs only

Damn.. its been so bored lately. Nothing's been happening. Just when is the world going to end? I mean, seriously, my life is beginning to get into routine. Its almost the same stuff everyday. Can anyone teach me how to be rich? I had alot of interviews phone calls lately.Yes, i am trying my very best to change job. Fuck those fuckers who is trying to tell me its not the right time to change job. Dont come around telling me how to run my life. As a matter of fact, i have been having calls to ask me to go interview for Sales Manager, Risk Management Specialist etc.. Just dont get confuse babe, Yours truly is GREAT, he welcomes challenges. That is why what i studied had nothing to do with my profession. NOTHING. Screw you with your idiotic comments, i heard what you are thinking..

Anyway, back to the topic, see that?? Read that and understand that. Yours truly had not been able to hit any job because.... just look at the title of this topic!!! All jobs are reserved for Sporeans n Prs only. Niama CB. Anyway its ok. If theres no way to cross this ocean in front of me, yours truly will catch a freakin shark n ride it to cross this mutha freakin ocean. Just you wait for my next entry.. But before that, let us read the title of this entry again. For Sporeans n Prs only. Yeah, just love it babe!!

A Turning Point

(NOTICE: ITS A VERY BORING AND LONG ENTRY BELOW, I BLOG THIS AS A REMINDER FOR MYSELF ONLY. DO NOT BOTHER TO READ ON AS IT MAKES NO SENSE OTHER THAN TO MYSELF)


Wow, I am really facing a huge difficulties while trying to blog down this entry. You see, there's alot of stuff been going on in my mind lately and I really feel the urge to blog it down. As a reference, or a checkpoint for me if i ever get lost in the future. The thing is, I do not know if i could blog down exactly the abstract idea thats been going on in my mind but I'll try as I think that its very important for me to states it down. Lets cut the crap...

Everyone, if you ever noticed, have their own set of mentality, style of thinking. Its this style of thinking that determined the uniqueness of an individual. Its also this style of thinking process that determined their characteristic, their luck and even their destiny. Its the very own weapon that you use to analyze things that's been going on around you. But sadly, how many of us really utilize it? Worse still, instead of using our mentality to really think and define our destiny, majorities of us just follow through the flow of the societies and living our days aimlessly.

Ever wondered why majorities of the professionals or highly successful people are in debts today and unable to live the life that they always wanted? Hey, they studied hard, give their freaking best but still unable to climb up to the success ladder? On the other hand, those that never studies, quit school before even completed their primary school and couldnt speak other language except their native tougue language became a freakin filthy millionaire? Are they just freakin lucky? I doubt so. If you asked me, I would say that its the way they think. Their thinking pattern are completely different than the majorities. That is why they succeeded. Look at the questions below and you would understand:

1. Would you rather write a good resume and be employed by the world best corporate company or would you rather have the skill to write a good business plan and starts your business from scrap?
2. Would you choose to study hard and be smart or would you rather to employ smart people to work for you?
3. When it comes to money concern, would you play it safe or would you rather learn how to manage risk?
4. When you desire something that is impossible, do you tell yourself "I would never be able to afford it?" or do you ask yourself "How should I get it?"

Studying will only enquiped us with survivor skills that is enough to meet months end needs. Sorry, I am not trying to critics. My point is, if we follow through this pattern of life, we will eventually end up in the rat race. Work, gets your pay checks, pay off your bills and debts, and work again hoping that one day your hard work would be recognize. Its a never ending cycle. No matter how hard you climb, you will still be in this rat race and the cycle of debts. To break through, we need to have a different kind of mentality than the majorities. We need to break through our thinking pattern. Looking back at Q4, its a very strong reminder for myself. When you tell yourself that "I would never be able to afford it", you are making a statement. When you makes a statement, your brain rest and accept it. Its a form of mental laziness. But whenever a question is asked, it keeps your brain active and eventually you will be finding a solution to your answer.

Okay, its been a very long entry. I have made a point to myself.. I shall try to blog something more relaxing and less stressful next time round.. lol

Pissed off

Ok, how should i start this thing? Its been going on for awhile and to a certain extend its pissing me off. The story goes like this..

After college, i have been working for like abt 4 yrs now? My first job, pay was RM1400, got promoted and the pay goes up for like abt RM2400. After a yr i switched job to another company and earned a pay of like RM4k to 5k a month(quite depending as its a sales job, but it range around there). For some reasons, i quitted that job and came to spore after a yr. And its a drastic change. My pay drop to SGD1150 a mth. Its a hotel job. Yeah, for ur info, i studied Software Engineering but joined the sales line after i graduate. When i came to spore, i switched to hotel line. Dont ask me why i didnt pursue jobs which i spend money to study, i m bored of answering that question. Of course, i didnt get SGD1150nett monthly, somehow or another, we do have commision as well. So my monthly salary permonth can go as high as SGD1900 to SGD2000 depending on my commision.

Yeah, alot of ppl told me that i was doing an underpaid job. But the biggest problem of all is this.. My gf mom had been pursuading my gf to leave me as i am not good enough for her. Fuck, why didnt she say that when i am earning 5k a month? And because i have been laying low for this past 2 yrs shes been sarcasticly putting in all kinda bloody remarks? Fine, i m bored of this job anyway, without her saying i will get a better job for myself too. So, lets see what she is going to say after i climb to the next level.

Seriously...

Man, seriously.. is it so hard to get a better job nowdays? I have been working in hotel line for 2 years now.. I'm getting bored.. So sick n tired of it.. but i am still stuck... cant leave this job yet cause i need the greens.. and at the same time cant get a better offer yet.. so in short, i am still stuck..

Damn, i am reli looking forward for new challenges in life.. When life starts to get into routine.. i SERIOUSLY will feel very very bored..

Feelings of being alive

Seriously, we are all living our days.. day in and day out.. but how often do you feel that you are alive? Do you feel alive when you are happy? Or do you feel alive when you are hanging out with your crews and homies? How about feeling alive when you are with your loved one?

I once read a book with a statement which is quite interesting. It says that all human beings have the same ultimate destiny, which is.. death. But how often do we feel alive when we are still living? You see, during our process of growing up, we have somehow been set to a basic of routine where the MAJORITIES think is the CORRECT way to live. Study hard when you are young. Go to a good college or uni. Get a job with high pay and good social status. Thats what you call living. What if you do not follow the CORRECT way? Well, unless you succeed in this societies, or else you will be setting an example for the future generation to NOT to follow. Probably, they will say.. "look at him, thats the price for been not studying hard when you are young, and cant get a good job blah blah blah" If you break all the rules and not been succeeding in your life, you are outcasted. But what if you breaks the rules and succeed? People will say, damn, this guy is smart, this guy is lucky, you know that he didnt even study.. blah blah blah
Ironic? How truth is it? You should know..

The funny thing is.. I have been breaking all the rules during my younger days.. Not really successful now but not that bad either. I can get what i want, just need to work for it. But how far can i go and how far can i climb? Lets see which kinda judgment i get when i am dead.. At least when i leave this world, i can proudly tell myself that I have lived!!

Black and White, its called Simplicity

Take some time to reflect.. during all these yrs, just how much we have changed? It doesnt matter if its for the better or the worse, my point is, we have changed.

Remember the time when we were still kids? We thought that everything is divided into the side of good and bad, black and white. Our world was so simple because of such simplicity. As we slowly grow older.. we began to see more and understand more.. Sadly, most of us come to a conclusion that there is no certainty between the black and white. We have discovered a new area which is called "gray". This area, ironically, tells us that the goods are not always goods and the bads are not always what it seems to be. Complicated? Not really.. it can be explained in a single word though. Its called "corruption".

Freedom VS Responsibility

Can freedom and responsibility co-exists? Well, for me.. I truly dun think so.. They are just like Fire and Water, God and Satan, Angels and Demons.. stuff like that. You can only choose one of them at each given situation. Yeah.. some smart arse will come telling you that you need to "Balance" it out? Hello, can both freedom and responsibility be weight?

Still remember the time when we are running wild and not a care in the world? We create havoc by turning the world upside down? As you grow older.. you find it harder to do the stuff you used to do it back then huh? You call yourself mature or is it the responsibility in you that had been tied-ing you down? Will we be able to ignore the responsibility towards our family, our friends, our love ones and just proceed to do what we really wanted to do deep down? Most of us can't.. because we know that there is a debt to be paid

So.. until the day we cleared off the debts.. can we be who we really are?

Crossroads

Not the first time setting up a blog.. the last one didnt survive very nicely.. been busy.. thats what i told myself.. doesnt everybody? We are too caught up with our life.. too busy to stop to breath..

So why blogging again now you asked? Maybe too much had been going on for this past 2 yrs. Too much on my mind.. Maybe I could just let something out here right?

Crossroads.. How many times in our life do we have to face it? It feels that something in your life need to change. Feels like its time to make a decision. Feels like its time to leave the comfort zone again.. This feelings had been haunting me since last year.. and i can feel that its actually consuming my mind now.. Wise men says we should learn to appreciate the things around us.. Appreciation is the key to happiness.. Bullshits! Appreciation only makes your mind weak.. Appreciation makes you settle for the lesser things in life.. If you wanna be at the mountaintop.. you just have to keep on climbing.. If you wanna be the best warrior in life.. you just have to keep on fighthing..

Appreciation can come when you are at your golden age.. when you are too weak to even walk yourself to toilet to pee.. thats when you should start dwelling on appreciation.. So yeah.. I have made the decision.. Its time to say goodbye.. for the better or for the worse