Feelings of being alive

Seriously, we are all living our days.. day in and day out.. but how often do you feel that you are alive? Do you feel alive when you are happy? Or do you feel alive when you are hanging out with your crews and homies? How about feeling alive when you are with your loved one?

I once read a book with a statement which is quite interesting. It says that all human beings have the same ultimate destiny, which is.. death. But how often do we feel alive when we are still living? You see, during our process of growing up, we have somehow been set to a basic of routine where the MAJORITIES think is the CORRECT way to live. Study hard when you are young. Go to a good college or uni. Get a job with high pay and good social status. Thats what you call living. What if you do not follow the CORRECT way? Well, unless you succeed in this societies, or else you will be setting an example for the future generation to NOT to follow. Probably, they will say.. "look at him, thats the price for been not studying hard when you are young, and cant get a good job blah blah blah" If you break all the rules and not been succeeding in your life, you are outcasted. But what if you breaks the rules and succeed? People will say, damn, this guy is smart, this guy is lucky, you know that he didnt even study.. blah blah blah
Ironic? How truth is it? You should know..

The funny thing is.. I have been breaking all the rules during my younger days.. Not really successful now but not that bad either. I can get what i want, just need to work for it. But how far can i go and how far can i climb? Lets see which kinda judgment i get when i am dead.. At least when i leave this world, i can proudly tell myself that I have lived!!