Suprise?

Aight, so finally, I have made up my mind to resign. Its not a last minute decision thing, in fact I have thought about it long and hard enough.. at least..

Been working in this Hotel for 3 years, got my ups and downs, met alot of interesting people. But fuck, I have been underpaid for these 3 years, not to mention that I worked like there is no tomorrow for this company. Reward? Yes, been promoted but so? Its still not enough as I have prove that I am worth more than that.

Nothing wrong with my colleagues and people around me. All are great people, its just that the management style of this company finally ring a wake up call in my head. Yeah, I have spoke to some people about my decision, mostly are my duty managers. Their advice is, not to resign without having another proper job. Why dont secure a job first before resigning? Good advice, and that is exactly the same thing I told myself at the beginning of 2009. And now, 2010, I am still here..

Risky? Yeah, so it seems. Looking at the situation now, its STILL ESPECIALLY HARD to get a job for foreigner. Taking a step like this might not be a wise move. Looking back, I have screwed up alot of my interview JUST BECAUSE I do not have a PR status.

So the question is, why still make this decision then? My answer....I just have to. If I continue to play on the safe side, my life will forever be mediocre. After I resign, I am sure I will get another job, because I know, human beings will get what they really desire if they want it bad enough.. that is, when you are pushed to the limits with no where to turn. Playing at the safe side is just so not me. I live on the other side of "SAFE" all along and I have lived well there. Maybe, this 3 years, I am starting to get comfortable..

While I still can, I will do what I think is the right path for me.. Afterall, normal and safe are for mediocre.

My Feeling's Metaphor..

Still surviving under gunfire. Making my kills every night. The moonlight shines through the corpse, and all I see is red. Is there any sanity left in me, if the only way to survive is kill. I will fight till the end of time. Not enjoying the battlefield but waiting for the rising sunlight at dawn to shine on me..

2010

First post in 2010, been procastinating for sometimes before updating this blog. 2010.. how time flies.. 27 this yrs.. Looking back at my life, nothing much accomplished. Got my ups and downs. Have decided a few of things that I must achieved before this years end. To put my life back in tracks, the first thing I need to do is to quit my hotel job. Been there for 2 and a half years. Not bad, leanrt my stuff. I can see that if i invest more time in it, few more years on the road, I will be reaching to higher level in this line. But, if i think further, even if i reached to the heights i want in this line, its not going to bring me to my life-long ambition. That's why, I have decided, regardless whether i have a job or not, I am gonna resign. In order to achieve what I want in life, I have to get out of my comfort zone, been there for too long. Looking at how I started my career, I was quite a dare-devil. I studied IT, but when into sales job in Malaysia. Money was good, stressed-level was high. But I am moving forward back then. Until the stressed level was too much to bear, I quit and moved to Singapore and joined the hotel industry. Not an easy life in Spore, money was no longer that good, but hell, job was easier to cope and managed. And I can see that my promotion is coming up, but sarcastically, I am stepping out now. I dunno whether my decision is correct, but i definately know that if i want what i want in life, i need to step out..