Suprise?

Aight, so finally, I have made up my mind to resign. Its not a last minute decision thing, in fact I have thought about it long and hard enough.. at least..

Been working in this Hotel for 3 years, got my ups and downs, met alot of interesting people. But fuck, I have been underpaid for these 3 years, not to mention that I worked like there is no tomorrow for this company. Reward? Yes, been promoted but so? Its still not enough as I have prove that I am worth more than that.

Nothing wrong with my colleagues and people around me. All are great people, its just that the management style of this company finally ring a wake up call in my head. Yeah, I have spoke to some people about my decision, mostly are my duty managers. Their advice is, not to resign without having another proper job. Why dont secure a job first before resigning? Good advice, and that is exactly the same thing I told myself at the beginning of 2009. And now, 2010, I am still here..

Risky? Yeah, so it seems. Looking at the situation now, its STILL ESPECIALLY HARD to get a job for foreigner. Taking a step like this might not be a wise move. Looking back, I have screwed up alot of my interview JUST BECAUSE I do not have a PR status.

So the question is, why still make this decision then? My answer....I just have to. If I continue to play on the safe side, my life will forever be mediocre. After I resign, I am sure I will get another job, because I know, human beings will get what they really desire if they want it bad enough.. that is, when you are pushed to the limits with no where to turn. Playing at the safe side is just so not me. I live on the other side of "SAFE" all along and I have lived well there. Maybe, this 3 years, I am starting to get comfortable..

While I still can, I will do what I think is the right path for me.. Afterall, normal and safe are for mediocre.

My Feeling's Metaphor..

Still surviving under gunfire. Making my kills every night. The moonlight shines through the corpse, and all I see is red. Is there any sanity left in me, if the only way to survive is kill. I will fight till the end of time. Not enjoying the battlefield but waiting for the rising sunlight at dawn to shine on me..